Bonehead's Progress Thread

[bonehead]

Hey guys.

Starting to feel better after what was an awful week. Last monday, after 3 days without dressing change, Miro examined me and we were confronted with a 2cm section of necrotic tissue in the middle of the shaft. He was concerned that the deeper layers of skin had been penetrated and was reluctant to remove it because scaffold was likely to be directly underneath. We would have to 'hope' that the skin grew back otherwise I would require penile skin reconstruction surgery. I asked him to quantify the chances of avoiding surgery and he said that he was a 'positive guy' so '90%'. He quickly upped it to '99%' for no particular reason, then held my shoulder for a second as I left, white as a ghost.

I spent the day in bed, sick with stress, struggling to eat, coming to terms with the possibility that I could have arm skin grafted onto my penis if the necrosis kept spreading. I started praying to god, Allah for something different. I focused all my energies on trying to 'feel' the skin healing. The next examination was better, Miro said he was surprised how much it had improved. It still looked sufficiently awful for me to stress like mad for the next 2 days, I really felt like I was going around the bend, and requested a sedative from Miro. But then I realized this stress was actually helping me in a way, because I'd had no nocturnal erections for 3 nights, giving the skin extra time to heal. So no sedative.

I've had 2 more examinations since and am feeling more positive and eating properly again. Apologies for not updating sooner, I just didn't have the energy.

And Hoddle10, yes I noticed the same thing re the dissolving of the scaffolds last time, ages of nothing, then they were quickly gone.

[mustang2020]

Hang in there man, you are on the right track to stay positive and look forward. We are all praying for you in our own ways!

[Skeptical One]

Thanks for the update, and I totally understand about not having the "energy" to hop onto PhalloBoards, times have been rough.

I don't mean to complicate the situation anymore than it has to be, but have you considered a second opinion from another local Urologist? Just an idea, I'm personally frustrated that this has dragged on this long, and it's not easy.

Happy you're staying positive and eating again. Please update us when you are in the right mood and energy, we look forward to hearing from you.

[mikehok]

Bonehead, you have my sympathy, I know what you are going through. You may have read my story a year ago on MNS under the name of jsapphire. I had a scaffold surgery with Miro which ended in near disaster. Not the same problem as you, but I had to undergo a second corrective surgery in london only a couple of months after my procedure in Serbia.

It was probably the worst period of my life, I couldn't help thinking the worst, I was at rock bottom. Fortunately I did recover and healed, not totally unscathed but I'm ok and back thinking about PE again !

So I wish you well...

[viduka]

I followed your story on MSN, I hope your doing well.

[whitesnakeguy]

Hope everything is going good Bonehead, hang in there buddy.

[whitesnakeguy]

I know words can't describe what you are going through right now Bonehead, but hang in there man. Hope to hear from you soon.

[respecto]

How are you doing Bonehead? Hopefully you're getting better . Fingers crossed!

[unclejj]

Bonehead: Hang in there with your positive mental attitude! Best to you.

[bonehead]

Hey guys, thanks for the kind words.

It's been a long couple of weeks, things started to really go downhill again and I lost the appetite to return to the forums. Last week I had a second surgery. The wound midshaft showed no signs of healing, it was actually getting bigger, so Vladimir recommended that we 'mobilise' loose skin at the base, shave 1mm or 2mm off the scaffold that had broken through, to relieve pressure and then stitch it all up. I awoke from surgery for Miro to tell me a different story, that they had to remove a whole section of scaffold around and above the wound. And that wasn't the half of it. Two days later when the dressing was changed I was confronted with some weird X shaped pattern of about 10 stitches running up the shaft. A 'flap' technique. The right hand side of the penis looks like someone's had a bite out of it. I've been assured the skin will stretch after pumping therapy and that there will be a small difference in thickness where the scaffold was outed. That's assuming there's any girth gain at all. I'm over worrying about it now, thank god I get to go home tomorrow finally after almost 6 weeks wondering. I wish I had tried the elist implant, at least that can be removed without so much fuss. I can't blame Miro and his crew for all that has happened, they certainly have faults but have taken care of business even though I had to push at times. At the clinic today when I told Miro I was leaving he hugged me and said thankyou. Hey, the guy's got a sense of humour even if it was at my expense.

And yes jsapphire I remember your story, I considered having the correction in London like you. I understand your desire for more PE, I already started plotting my future moves when everything started cocking up (pun intended)

[hoddle10]

Sorry to hear about your problems. To be honest when you hadn't updated for a while i assumed it was due to bad news. I've seen photo's of flaps used to create more shaft skin in the past and though they look bad after surgery, they actually tend to heal pretty well, to the point it isn't really noticeable.

[bonehead]

Thanks Hoddle10, Miro said the same thing but you seem to be more of a realist than he so I'll take your word for it.

[hoddle10]

Did they give any reason as to why they thought the necrosis happened in the first place?

[tenaglia]

Spero di vero cuore, che tu possa recuperare in pieno, dopo questa brutta esperienza, sia sotto il profilo fisico, che mentale, un abbraccio

TRANSLATION

I hope with my whole heart, you can recover in full, after this bad experience, both in terms of physical, mental, hugs

[bonehead]

tenaglia, thanks. Hugs was a nice touch, I might even accept one from a guy the way I've been feeling, hey but I did already, from Miro! Jeez.

Hoddle10, to me, the reason for the necrosis was basically 'pressure necrosis'. In the areas where there were problems, I felt pressure and complained to Miro in an email and Skeptical1 in a chat session that I could feel the scaffolds trying to break through. The bottom scaffold had deformed and was widening and pushing the top scaffold. I could feel skin sore midshaft. Miro of course said 'don't worry'. Two days after, when the dressing was changed, he looked worried.

Miro and Vladimir keep talking around the pressure theory, saying that it was 'an allergic reaction' to the scaffolds. I reasoned that if it was an allergic reaction, why would I have problems only in the areas I felt pressure? Miro then said that 'one unknown event may have caused a cascading of events' blah blah blah, but to me it was obvious. Perhaps Miro felt that I could accuse him of negligence on the basis that I warned him in the email and he said 'do nothing'. Writing this to you now is the first time I've looked at this way. God I'm a dummy.